Hello My Name is Jess

.... and I am a coffee addict.  There, I said it.  I've been trying to tell myself for awhile now that I'm fine with an occasional cup of coffee here and there.  Ha.  Who did I think I was kidding? 

I gave up coffee for a few weeks back when we were desperately trying to figure out why Addy spits up so much, and let me tell you, it was a rough few weeks.  This post was right in the midst of my no coffee phase.  The breakfast dishes sat in the sink all day, the coffee pot remained full of ground up beans, the bed was unmade....all until right before Mike came home from work.  Sometimes not even then.  Not that he ever says anything, bless his heart.  (Yup, now that I've said that I have officially become a Southerner.)  I just like to have it done before he gets home so it can look as though its been done all day.  Wow.

Sometimes I wonder if he ever looks around the house and wants to ask "What did you do all day?  No dinner....again?"  But he doesn't.  Probably because he knows I'd tell him right where to shove it if he did.  But seriously, I'm here all day, and I wonder what I've been doing.  Surely he must too.  I think if I were him, I would.   And I probably wouldn't be as good about keeping my mouth shut about it either.  I mean, is it that hard to clean the house and throw a meal together?

(Side note: my house is not the disgusting mess that I make it out to be. It just isn't as clean as my apparently unrealistic standards would like it to be. The way it used to be.... pre-baby.) I guess I need to relent a little and come to grips with the idea that maybe the baseboards don't need to be cleaned every week. Things like that. I'll try it. What ends up happening is I get so overwhelmed with the thought of cleaning the house the way I think it should be done, that I end up not doing it at all. Then the baseboards aren't clean,...but neither is anything else. 

Now, think I have figured out that my lack of household motivation is directly proportional to my lack of coffee consumption.  An excuse?  Yes, but I'll take it.  I'm sorry Addy. I know that you spit up like no other, but I think we've determined that my coffee consumption really doesn't affect it either way. Right?   So can mommy please give up this delusional idea that maybe she doesn't need coffee and just go back to it?   Pretty please... with a cherry on top?   This is the question that I politely asked my daughter last week.  She smiled and said that was fine with her.

So this week has been a brand new week.  I've been a whirlwind ... cleaning breakfast dishes before noon, sweeping the insane amount of dog hair off of our hardwood floors, cleaning bathrooms, making dinner.  I feel like superwoman.  Don't mind that i am doing all of this with a slight jitter.  I just needed to get back to my daily cup of coffee.  Now all is right with the world. ... or at least, with my house.

Motivation is what gets you started.
Habit is what keeps you going.
Make it a habit!

I saw this quote the other day, and I am making it my mantra.  Happy Friday!